Here's What I Learned From Journaling My Cannabis Consumption
After taking notes on my weed-intake, I learned that I use marijuana with specific intentions.
Since I first got into weed, it has remained one of the few constants of my life. It’s difficult to make such a confession without coming off like a total stoner, though the assertion is true nonetheless.
For me, the past decade has been a deluge of ups, downs, years of happiness, and brief spans of severe depression––the human experience is fluid. I’ve felt everything and nothing. I’ve succeeded, I’ve failed, I’ve counted change on the first of the month, and flown first class on international flights. Mostly we’re all just fumbling through life twenty-four hours at a time, and I've been no exception. And that’s totally chill. I'm twenty seven going on one hundred. The drug is a crucial glue that keeps me intact when I break down into dozens of shattered pieces. Weed brings me back to the here and now on the days when I lose myself to paranoia, anxiety, and fleeting moments of fleeing sensibility.
I’ve also spent a significant portion of my early adult life in a continual state of couch-lock, laughing too loud, and being stoned as hell.
Indeed, everyone chooses cannabis for their own purposes, and is motivated by a myriad of reasons unique to them. But looking inward to glean insight into our own weed habits isn’t as paltry a task as it may sound. Intending for us to do just that, Goldleaf recently gifted KINDLAND a set of personal patient journals.
“We developed the Patient Journal to empower patients by giving them the tools to accurately chart all the important factors in their therapy,” reads the branding copy on the Ohio-based, cannabis-first design and product-manufacturing firm’s website.
“They can use this information to share with their caregiver or tweak their own regimen.”
With this new and beautifully made cannabis-ancillary tool in hand, I wrote down my recent weed-inclining activities.
The first thing you’ll notice about the Goldleaf Patient Journal is that by inputting pieces of your daily or recent cannabis intake––such as the symptoms you seek treatment for via checkboxes, and charting felt effects, and taking note of any other influencing factors to your overall wellness–––it gives context to why and how you are consuming marijuana.
For me, what I noticed first (but perhaps already kind of knew) is that any cannabis consumption has served a specific purpose: I smoke flower in order to sleep, I snack on edibles, or pull from a vape pen for a boost in afternoon creativity at work, and most days I dab before (and after) I eat.
And I imagine this functional weed praxis is probably pretty common among most modern cannabis consumers. Pot is a drug, yeah, duh, of course. But its true value is realized not because it is used by millions of people, but in how people use it.
I was recently on photo-assignment for KINDLAND at a hash and wax festival in San Bernardino, on the first truly hot day of the year. It was nearly 100 degrees. And after taking close to 100 dabs, with a DSLR camera around my shoulder for most of the day, a dressed-in-all-black beach rat if you will, I got probably the worst heat stroke I’ve had in years. Hives. Shortened breath. Dripping in sweat. I smelled like ass and went home early, my roommate all but dragging me from the car to the elevator in the parking garage, to our apartment in downtown Los Angeles. But after I cooled down with a cold shower and a bowl of some just-procured Planet Tangie, I reflected on the experience in my Goldleaf Patient Journal. I came to the conclusion that the day’s recrementitious recreational taking of dabs was also probably a key factor in me wanting to die. Weed is like that, too.
Journaling about my weed use has been cathartic as my cannabis consumption is therapeutic. And though I’m sure I won’t keep record of each dab, or document every time I roll a blunt, it would do me well to do so.
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All photos by the author.